I take the path less taken, not because it’s something that I have to, but because I wanna forge my way to my goal. The picture you see is the path I take to go to my classes. It’s Dawn for me. It’s the end of the cruel harsh night. Something that lasted for so long.
Ever since I left my relationship, I realized I wasn’t myself. I wasn’t the person who I wanted to be. The Independent, driven, motivated, and passionate person I once was. That was taken away from me.
If I have said it once, I will say it again and again. The Divine Comedy is my favorite piece of literature. In the story, Dante places himself in a fictional journey through hell, purgatory, and paradise. Inferno, Purgatorio, and Paradiso. Through my experience I have placed myself in the Inferno, where I had to experience the pain and hardship. I had to see only the wrath of one. My abuser wasn’t my guide though. He was the environment I was in. He was the pain and suffering. The fire and the brimstone. I knew I had to traverse through the hardships in order to escape the Inferno. My guides were the people that actually cared. The ones who would spend hours talking to me on the phone. My parents, my friends, my advisors, my family. Those were the ones that helped me escape the flames.
I know find myself in the reflection state in the Purgatory. Where I’m slowly climbing the mountain to recovery. Where I build myself back up to where I once was.
In the story, Dante shows that Purgatory is a mountain, where the souls of which traverse up to reach the summit, and reach paradise. The kicker is, you can only travel during the day. For if you travel at night, you cannot progress forward and you end moving back.
I find that the night represents myself in a state where I feel the trauma from the events of my past relationship. Every time I think about that situation and I try to move forward, I find myself moving backwards. In order to progress, I have to do so when the time is right.
The night is over, and the Dawn has begun. It’s time to make a move to change my life. The trail is in front of me and I have to keep moving.
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